restlessness

Today I was going to do some stuff - today being late Thursday night - but I didn’t.  I don’t know why exactly.  I got a lot of crap done over the first part of the week, including my dreaded taxes, but for some reason I had plans to get stuff done but nothing became of them.  I was done working for the ‘Man’ early as well …but that still didn’t seem to help.  Just little things that needed to get tidied away.  Tomorrow maybe?  Possibly.

I’ve been on a sugarless diet of sorts this week too.  By sugarless, I mean I’ve cut out Slurpees, pop and chocolate things in hopes of getting some better sleep.  Does too much sugar make for bad sleep?  I’ll let you know I guess.  The last few nights have been pretty restful - so who’s to say.

Yeah, I don’t know.  It’s almost like I’ve been restless.  There’s always something stupid on my mind.  I keep having these visions of sorts …for example, I’ll be walking along somewhere and suddenly I’ll see something that’ll set me off to thinking about the meaning of things.  Of all kinds of things though, not just what I happen to see - but stuff like why people are the way they are (myself included) and why we seem to go about things in the same manner all the time.  I keep thinking about part of that poem I quoted earlier, how all we have now is essentially all we’ve ever had and all we will ever have.  Material is material, it simply reforms itself.

One of the big news items in Alberta lately was the death of 500 migrating ducks as they flew into a ‘tailings pond’ set up by a large oil company.  Everyone seemed to be distraught with the death of the birds but didn’t seem to give second thought to the idea that we have a toxic ‘lake’ set upon the earth.  My concerning thought with the story was about how connected everything is - the land, animals and yes - us.  But our view is only on the ‘living’ …the easily identifiably living, and not the larger picture.

Also, I’ve had thoughts about how confusing we make things for ourselves.  Our language is the perfect example of ‘dumbing down’ - we simplify for a point of convenience but the result is a loss of communication.  I’ll talk more about this later on - but I’m convinced it’s the best reason for most of the conflicts we have.

I’ve got a few gigs this weekend too - so I’ll probably post them as ‘filler’ …then consider elaborating about some of the other stupid things that have been in my head lately.