musical notes…

11 07 2009

Did a little gig with Samantha King this weekend.

It was interesting.  Not so much musically though, that’s kinda standard for the most part, but what was fascinating was getting a peek at a completely different musical world from my own.  She’s a 24 year old ‘country’ singer who’s been preforming since she was 13, did the Nashville thing, co-wote with some of the who’s who in the ‘biz’ and has had an inside view of the professional side of the industry that many in my musical world have never had.  Most of this occurred years ago too.

It’s just funny, that’s all.  Her path is completely different than mine …she’s seen and done things that I’ll never do.  It goes the other way too I suppose.  Having said that though, there’s the basic stuff that kinda keeps us both doing what it is we do.  Regardless of the outside world and not for any reason other than our own satisfaction.  Our own need to express something that is uniquely us.  Different paths …similar destinations.

That might be a different sort of beautiful thing.





Smile – music by Charlie Chaplin

8 07 2009

While over a blog I visit, it was mentioned that the song ‘Smile’ was sung at the Michael Jackson funeral …it was also a tune MJ covered a while back as well as a song written by Charlie Chaplin, with lyrics composed by John Turner and Geoffrey Parsons.  Here’s a reprint of them from this site

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though its breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, you’ll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You’ll see the sun come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
Thats the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what’s the use of crying?
Youll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

<instrumental interlude>

Thats the time you must keep on trying
Smile, whats the use of crying?
Youll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

Maybe it’s me but ….isn’t this a mixed message.  Kinda?

It’s telling you to ignore what you’re feeling, throw on a smile and eventually things will be better.  Basically.  Sure there are are snippets of good advice …”you’ll find that life is still worthwhile“, “maybe tomorrow you’ll see the sun come shining through for you“, “light up your face with gladness” – but the rest of it seems to be from a handbook on denial.  It doesn’t matter if your heart is aching or breaking …just smile, and smile even though you’re afraid and/or sad!?  Don’t forget to simply hide every trace of sadness while your at it, and if you feel like crying …don’t!?  Suck it up people …there’s simply no use in it.

Considering MJ’s over-the-top cosmetic alterations I suppose this song is a fitting eulogy.  He couldn’t smile in his real life …at least not very often, so I heard that is.  I don’t blame him of course.  I don’t blame his fans either.  If there’s any one thing to blame it’s the ‘business’ of music – when music is about money it becomes less and less about music …in my opinion.  But I digress.

The song in one sense suggests that being up-beat and optimistic is great because it gets you through the hard days until the good ones come around again …and they will, especially with a positive attitude.  And I like this (although a positive attitude has little to do with the face you put on!) but in another sense it’s telling you to shut-in your feelings and to put up a front of sorts.  Smile …even though it’s insincere and you honestly feel sad.  I’m no psychologist but I don’t think that’s smart.  Perhaps in moderation …say at a dinner party where something bad happened and you have to keep face so that you don’t ruin everyone’s evening …or something like that.  But to use it as a lifelong guide for healthy living?  I don’t know.  I suppose there are two ways of looking at things.  For me though …it just doesn’t sit right.

And I usually see the glass as half-full!

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Charlie Chaplin - Image from Bain News Service





what’s said on the internet…

7 07 2009

…stays on the internet.  Forever.

It was recently brought to my attention by some disgruntled Facebook users that Facebook is making changes to its general policy regarding privacy options on the content its users post.  Essentially it seems FB is assigning its default to a more open format …any content published, unless that user changes these settings themselves, can be viewed by ‘Everyone’.  More importantly, FB is giving the user more control over who has access to the various stories they choose to publish.  You can read more about it here.

Again, as with my blogonesty post, there’s really no big concern about what you post if you keep in mind that whatever you do post has the potential to be seen/read/heard by anyone else on the internets.  Is that so bad?  As I mentioned before, I don’t think so.  There was a time when the internet was somewhat like the wild west …back when the technology was new and constantly changing and somewhat hard to ‘pin down’ in terms of security over who was doing what and when.  It was also a time when most computer users had to actually know something about computers – this is definitely not the case anymore!  Now-a-days it seems the internet (or rather our internet activity) is simply an extension of ourselves …that is, our identity in the real world is staying with us in the cyber world.  You’re no longer that geek hiding away in your parents basement hacking into whatever you feel like.  Things aren’t so wild anymore.

Most people have no idea how new technology works.  They’ve been lulled into a ‘plug and play’ mentality …the easier it is to use, the better off they are …or so they’ve been conditioned to think.  For example – what young cell-phone user is going to care that their phone may contain features that allow it to be tracked, or what bumbling netbook user is concerned with wifi security, or what image sender cares that the day/time/camera-make/model and potential registration information is being sent along with the image, and who among the millions of forum and blog posters realize that their own computers (through their ISP or content hosts) are tagged/cookied and traced for future reference.  Not many.  I’d make the comment ignorance is bliss …but I don’t think it’s like that.  Not exactly that is.

We do of course care about our privacy, which is why we get into such a kerfuffle when we hear about these rights potentially threatened.  On one hand though, if you’re cloaked in anonymity (which occurs a LOT on the internet), you’ve technically relinquished any rights you have.  Your rights are your rights …and being anonymous means not being there to claim them, so you have no ground to stand on in my opinion.  On the other hand, if it’s a loss of personal information that concerns you, then shouldn’t some of the responsibility for giving/volunteering that information fall on your shoulders?  Don’t blame big corporations for your lack of common sense/cavalier attitude about what you don’t understand.  No one likes being told what to do – especially consumers …but for some reason we allow businesses to dictate how we should act with their products …while at the same time mindlessly using and endorsing what they provide.  They give us what we want …and yet we somehow expect this to be free!?  It’s not, and the price is our personal freedom.  What should happen however, is that we become pro-active when it comes to new technologies, and not assume that just because the guy next door does it, it’s somehow OK for us.  Or perhaps you might enjoy following your neighbor off that proverbial bridge next time around?

Here’s my advice …consider anything you place online as having the potential to be viewed by someone else.  Email gives you a certain amount of security/legality when it comes to content, but even then there’s still a possibility for failure in the transmission.  Secure/encrypted transactions however, are as good as any personal face to face meeting.  Everything else though …facebook, myspace, blogs, forums, chat rooms, IM etc., should be seen as open territory.  It’s a product/service you don’t actually pay for …and like they say, you don’t get what you don’t pay for.  I don’t mean to suggest that there shouldn’t be any privacy on these fronts …but that in the still ever-changing world of social connectedness perhaps it would help if you erred on the side of caution. At least until there are more guarantees in place surrounding the legalities of your content.  The problem is though, as soon as we clamor for more security with a product, the quicker we lose interest in it.  It’s as if the added security takes the fun out of things.  If Facebook become a paid service many of its users would walk away pretty fast.

Privacy is nice, but you have to realize what is and what isn’t private, especially online.  In regards to social connectedness I think it’s a matter of having your cake – you can have it that is, and I suppose you can eat it …but it sure ain’t gonna taste too good when it also arrives on your spouses ‘wall‘ with a picture of an old girl/boyfriend attached to it.

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Image from Facebook.





funks

5 07 2009

I’m in somewhat of a funk as of late.

I don’t like funks.  It’s not so much that they spiral you down, but that they spiral you down slowly.  The bottom is a long way away when you’re so level-headed too.  And I’m not sure why I am either, which I suppose would make sense seeing as knowing why means one could solve the problem.  I have zero motivation …and for anything.  I hate that my summer is somewhat pre-set already.  I hate that I can never finish anything to my liking.  I hate that there’s nothing that excites me lately.  I feel like I’m in a box at times.  I know I can change things up …but I don’t think that would address the real issues.  I know that I don’t really know what the real issues are either, so that kinda nullifies the previous statement.

Even sleep doesn’t excite me …probably cause I know that I have to get up.





happy canada day …belated.

4 07 2009

I hate excessive patriotism btw.  A once a year celebration to recognize ones differences and similarities is fine.  Hanging your flag in your window and proclaiming the glory of your country to the masses at every opportunity however…  Anyway, here’s some pictures I grabbed during the ‘red and white’ occasion.

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a little more free time

30 06 2009

Two days ago I got up to my alarm clock.  I shut it off, and then was tickled by the thought that I technically don’t have to turn the thing on again until that last week of August.  Yea for me :)

Work for the Man has officially moved from ‘driver’ to ‘repairer’ (the Baritone Doctor …you know him and love him) and as a result I luckily get to set my own hours at work for the summer.  Although that’s not always great (I like to procrastinate and set myself up for loooong days) it does mean that I can saunter into the shop and then leave at whatever time I need.  I do of course have a quota to meet (the Baritones seem a little thick this summer too btw) but I can do them any day/time I choose …more or less.  Sunday’s are nice for example ….ditto with weeknights.  But yeah, the alarm is officially off.

This last weekend was sorta busy.  Did some playing with King Muskafa and the Wafer Thin Mints …and also got to some outdoor shows.  They sometimes call Edmonton ‘Festival City‘ (’city of champions‘ too …but not lately) as there’s always something going on.  The Works and the Edmonton International Jazz Festival are happening as I type – why everything is allowed to overlap doesn’t make a whole lot of sense to me however …we only have so many ’summer’ days available, so we tend to jam everything into a small time frame and the result is an over-saturation that hurts both the performers as well as the shell-shocked audience.  But they’ll keep jammin’ them in there though …I suppose.  Much will be missed, as there’s only so much one person can see.  This time around I saw my buddies Karen and Joel and also caught some tunes from Ian Alleyne.

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Karen Porkka

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Ian Alleyne

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Joel Gray

As for the important question …the answer seems to be placebo.  Yep, my study with the U of A Neurobiology Dept. came to an end today with my final fast/ultrasound/questionnaire/your-check’s-in-the-mail visit and it was revealed to me that I was actually on the placebo.  That’s good news …sorta.  Good because I feel less violated, but bad because I was hoping to use the anti-depressant as an excuse for not finding the motivation to get a bunch of music stuff done.  Oh well …here’s to some nose-to-the-grindstone efforts in the near future.

As a creative plus however, I have been getting out more and more with the new camera and I really like the new (old) Nikkor AF 75-300mm lens I picked up recently.  Extended it looks quite menacing, but it allows me to stay around 5 ft. back from my subject while still getting in close.  This is nice for pictures of flowers with bugs on them.  Yep, I hate bugs.  Bees/wasps especially.  Anyway, it also makes me realize I need to put some more effort into the actual shots – in particular, start using a tripod if I’m going to have the macro function engaged at all.  Even in good lighting, the subject (while in a close-up mode) dances all around my viewfinder.  A tripod will fix this …Im hoping.  Here’s a sunset thingy taken a short while back …clicking on it will get you to my Flickr! site where I’ve posted a few other favorites.

Tomorrow is Canada Day too …maybe I’ll get a few fireworks pics?  I really have no excuse not to seeing as my house is only blocks from the launching site.  I’m sure I’ll find one though…

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blogonesty

24 06 2009

“Elniski, who’s married and has three grown daughters, said he’s taken down the blog entry and is combing through other posts to ensure he hasn’t written anything else offensive.”

That’s from an article on an interesting (kinda) faux pas uttered by Alberta MLA Doug Elniski on his blog recently.  You can read the rest of the Calgary Herald article (by Renata D’Aliesio) by clicking on the text above.  I was also going to give you the link to his blog but it seems it’s been removed.  Google was nice enough to cache it though, so I’m reprinting the portion of the post that seemed to create such a stir…  “My advice to girls is even simpler: Ladies, always smile when you walk into a room, there is nothing a man wants less than a woman scowling because he thinks he is going to get shit for something and has no idea what. Men are attracted to smiles, so smile don’t give me that “treated equal” stuff, if you want equal it comes in little packages at Starbucks.” His blog post was a reprint of a Junior High Graduation speech he had to give as well as a quick commentary on issues facing the students.  What I find interesting in the Herald article however, is that Elniski makes the decision to comb through previous posts to check for other possible ‘blunders’.

Why?

What’s so wrong about being wrong?  Of course I’m not all that big on the absolutes of ‘right and wrong’ per se, but the idea that other people may not agree with your statements/views and may be offended/disappointed at what you have to say is not going to resolve itself if you simply hide or deny or ignore or delete what you did or said in the first place …is it?  You’re still you …regardless of what others say, and if someone happens to take offense so be it.  And what next?  Well, I suppose you’d consider your actions and determine if you honestly feel the way you do.  If you do, then justify yourself to those who disagree.  If you don’t, then look at making amends.

My blog is a ‘for better or worse’ type affair.  I’m sure I’ve said some things that are stupid and I’m sure I’ve said some things that aren’t …but if I did say something inappropriate then I would hope that I’d recognize this (if brought to my attention) and move on as a better and more informed person from it.  That’s the neat thing for me …that I may eventually learn something about myself.  Better myself.  You can’t, however, move along thinking you’re going to make everyone happy …that’s ridiculous, especially in a blog on the internet.  Life happens.  Internet happens.  And the you in your past is the you in your future …eventually.  It’s really nothing to be ashamed of.  Everyone is a work in progress – the key words being ‘in progress’.

I blog for a number of reasons …and I’m fairly honest about what I say.  I know some people may take offense to certain comments, but that doesn’t mean I’m going to appease them by pulling down content.  It’s there.  It’s a snapshot of me at a particular point in my life.  And after all, this blog is for me first.

You guys get the participation ribbon :)





post #34.234557

22 06 2009

Ouf-da.

It’s a guess on the spelling, but as far the Man’s Norwegian roots go (I think) it’s an exclamation of tiredness, exhaustion or some form of overwhelm.  It was funny …I caught a Simpson’s episode a few months back and the Swedes from Ogdenville (maybe it’s Swedish instead!) kinda took over the town and one the kids made the remark …and it reminded me of the Man.  I know this makes no sense to you …so just humor me for a bit ;)

But it’s been somewhat of an ‘ouf-da’ week.  The shop is in the middle of its busy 2 – 3 week period when we’re out gathering instrument things from the schools somewhat relentlessly.  Add to that rehearsals and gigs and my lead-in to summer is kinda blurry at best.  The King Muskafa peeps did the Nextfest wrap-up party last night ..our last set finished at around 2:50am, and I had to get up at 6:45.  Yep, I’m still tired.  It was fun though, and we do the same thing next Sunday at OTR ..unfortunately again I have to get up on Monday.  Ugg.  The Despite The Blindness fellows did a little Eddie Shorts gig on the Saturday night as well …although it wasn’t great in some regards, it was one of the better we’ve had.  That’s good news.

I also picked up a very nice (you have to say ‘very nice’ in Borat’s voice though) 75-300mm Nikkor Zoom Lens that was made in the late 80’s …I think.  The nice thing is that all the old Nikon lenses will mount on my D40.  The auto-focus is disabled …but it meters well and seems to take great shots.  When things die down I hope to get out and play around with it.  I did manage to swing by the Works Festival here in the city and test it out on one of the preforming bands there …you can see the pics here.  The bad camera news is that I finally did a little research and discovered all my older Minolta equip. is pretty much obsolete.  Not only did the company merge with Konica, but the new merger failed and was sold off to Sony.  Anyone for a free XG-1 with a vivitar zoom, minolta 50mm, flash, macro filters and some other little camera goodies?

Time for a trip to Goodwill one of these days I suppose.

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Some Nextfest hooligans.





dog shooting…

19 06 2009

An old blog that I used to visit (here) has been somewhat resurrected by its author.  It appears he’s being sued for libel over posts he made about a dog shooting incident that occurred about a year ago.  You can see his original posts here and here, the small video of the shooting here, and a blog put up in defense of the accused here.

I suggest watching the video first, then viewing his post, then reading through some of the witness statements here and here.  Of course it’s disgusting watching dogs get shot (watching any animal get shot!) but what interests me about the whole matter is the different perspectives on the same event.  I have no trouble feeling anger toward the shooter who knew, I believe, that he was shooting dogs, and I have no trouble feeling anger toward the dog owner who was negligent in training, irresponsible as a pet owner and the main reason why his dogs got into the situation they did.  Dogs will be dogs and cows will be cows …they can’t help it.  People on the other hand…

People seem to walk that balancing line between natural/innate urges and that higher sense of self.  We all have reasons for doing what we do and for saying what we say …and we all justify our actions that seem, at the time they’re done, as not only being in out best interest but in the best interest of the society we live in.  Standing behind ones convictions is usually an indication of character and strength, while in turn advances our own virtuous and ethical beliefs.

I feel that appreciating this process in others though, goes a long way to helping us better understand ourselves.





silly sensors

16 06 2009

While playing with the new camera lately, I came across some images that appeared to be plagued with blemishes.  It wasn’t always obvious, but on the sparse photos (solid color backgrounds without any real subjects in the foreground) you could see there was something there.  I cleaned the lens of course, that much was obvious, and noticed the internal mirror was a bit dusty …even to the normal eye.  It appears however, that the internal mirror is only used to reflect the lens image to your camera eye-piece …which is why you can actually see what you’ll be framing without needing the camera on.  I knew this …but forgot, so it was a good reminder.

Anyway, the sensor in a digital camera is located behind this mirror (as you lift it up and out of the way) which records the light from the lens.  There is no sensor in a film camera as the film itself is the sensor …and this is the primary difference between the two.  Turns out that the digital sensor, if being used in dusty, outdoor conditions, will eventually (especially if you’re not careful …always keep your camera pointed down if you’re swapping lenses!) attract these small particles and then display them in all of your photos …regardless of your lens.

I did buy a used camera, so I probably should of suspected a bit of dirt …which is fair.  The funny thing is – the McBain people I took my camera to noted the ‘test frame’ they took (to see the particles) as Light ….as opposed to Moderate or Heavy amounts of debris.  I thought my images would warrant a Heavy rating.  I mean, these were obvious, image wrecking blotches …as far as I was concerned.  I’ve included a few before and after tests that I took so you can see the difference yourself.  Clicking on either will open the full image.  On the plus side I suppose, the camera is clean.  The general condition overall was rated as ‘Like New …minor scratches on LCD’ …which makes me happy, and it works great every time I’ve had it out.

Now I just have to find some time to get out …seeing as it’s ‘go-time’ at work lately.  But that’s another story.

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The 'before cleaning' image ...circles indicate obvious spots.

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The 'after cleaning' image.